Saturday, July 31, 2010

What the hell were we thinking!

I often wonder if the kids of today will look back at the 90's the same way the previous generation looked at the 70's.

I'm not sure there was anything iconic about the 90's..but the 80's - I cant believe we dressed/danced/big haired like that !

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Late night thoughts

Dear Life, the Universe and Everything.

Did you ever have one of those days when something amazing happened that totally blew you out of the water?
I'm just saying - It's been a while - but I'm ready for it when you are.



Sunday, July 25, 2010


I cant stress how important it is to see the good things when they happen.
Celebrate the connections you make with each other, knowing they may not last, because while they do, they're a kind of magic.
And magic, even if fleeting, is worthwhile remembering.

Today I hope I've made a new friend.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

#1 with a Silver Bullet

Sometimes simple is better

Like an echo down a canyon
Never coming back as clear
Lately I just judge the distance
Not the words I hear
I've been too long on these islands
I've been far too long alone
I've been too long without summer
In this winter home

Wednesday, July 21, 2010


I really loved "The Bucket List", even if the ending kinda chokes you up.

Too much redemption is a powerful thing.

Even if your hands are shaking,
And your faith is broken.
Even as the eyes are closing,
Do it with a heart wide open.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Thanks but no thanks

I dont want to date.

Or perhaps, more correctly, I'm only interested in dating one particular person at present. She knows who she is.

I've felt this way for some time, and I've felt no desire to change my mind and date anyone else.

My friends dont subscribe to this particular point of view, and have tried to push me into dating.
I resisted, so they invited me to dinner, at the same time as another girl. And now they've done that they're about to do it again in a week or so.

In Notting Hill, when Hugh Grant is still getting over Julia Roberts, his friends try to set him up with all and sundry, under the guise of a dinner date. The dates range from the absurd to the ridiculous, yet at the end of the montage is a date with a perfectly lovely girl. The problem is, as nice as she is, she isn't Julia Roberts.

My problem is that I'm in love, and until I'm not in love any more, I don't really wanna go there.

In so many ways it would be easier to forget, but the heart wants what the heart wants, and it takes time for that to stop I'm guessing.

Comments have been turned off on this post, and if you know me, I don't wanna talk about this. Period.
Dearest friends and parents - I've never been more serious.

In the meantime have a lovely week, I'll be working on that myself :)

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Real, but with a twist

Life may be a journey of imperfections, but personally, I'm aiming for a happy ending.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Magic 8 Ball Madness

It seems my iPod touch Magic 8 Ball app is fucking with me.

Every time I ask a certain question it says "You are not ready to hear this answer yet".
Seriously - any other question I get a different response. But returning to my original question always leads to the same answer.

To be honest - it scared the bejesus out of me.

I mean;

1) What does it know that I don't, and
2) Why doesn't it think I can handle the truth!


Tuesday, July 13, 2010

I dont care

I post this repeatedly every couple of years, but who the hell cares.

In it's own way it's perfect.

Perfect harmonies, a killer drum pattern; tight and somehow greater than the sum of its parts.

I keep coming back to it. The recording is dated - the video worst still (look for Patrick Swayze). I keep hoping someone will remaster it and push it to another level.

Yeah - I know - it's just a song, but it makes me feel like grabbing a pair of imaginary drum sticks and using my computer as a drum. :)

Just because

Every now and them I need to remind myself that I'm not a cynic, and I actually subscribe to the glass half full mentality.

This is one of those times :)

Where ever you are, and whatever you're doing I hope this makes you smile.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Before Sunset

Driving through it all is an air of optimism - a faith that everything will sort itself out - that there is a sort of entropy in life.

If anyone wanted to undertake an understanding of what and who I am, "Before Sunset" would be required watching.
Three writers; two of which act in a movie filmed in real time (the other directing), Before Sunset, is a journey of hope and discovery. A piece of magic in what can be a cold, bland, and colourless world. If you watch it - and get it - you get me.

Three points I love.

Desire is the fuel of life.
A memory is never finished as long as you are alive, and finally;
The thought that when you are young you'll believe there are many people you'll connect with. Later in life you'll realise it only happens only a few times.

If you have a romantic bone in your body - rent it. Just make sure you watch Before Sunrise first, if you haven't already.

Friday, July 09, 2010

Citizen Cope

Just in case the good old Backstreet Boys left you feeling a little off colour.

I love this little number too.

Sing-a-long Friday

Doesnt get much better than this folks

I can almost hear Shars scream "Brian" when he has his turn at the mike :)

I've tried to hide it so that no one knows
But I guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
What you did and where you're comin from
I don't care, as long as you love me, baby

Genius !

Thursday, July 08, 2010


I'm not trying
to tear you down.
But you fog things up
You always have.
You spin me about.

I hate psychics.

They turn you about; send you North when you ought to go South; makes you keel when you should run true.
I'm a skeptic, but not a good one.
I'm told the same story from many a storyteller, once removed.
Does it make it real - all these same stories?
More importantly -Do you want to look for the answers to those questions?

My inner conspiracy theorist wonders if they trade our information at some kind of international swap meet. The child in me hopes for a world less defined; at odds with a predetermined life. The spiritual side has no idea, but has hope that all will be fine with this life.

We're a mix of so much, to stand by our faith, and say it means nothing.

You can tell I'm overdue some retail therapy - right ? :-)

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

I couldnt leave you hanging.

I was having a discussion with a friend in the weekend. I love conversations that go into uncharted area, even if they get dark sometimes.

We started to talk about his "down days", and how his friends pulled him through.
I wondered aloud if depression was something that happened to people who lived outside the moments of their lives, as apposed to those who effectively lived in "the now". We discussed this at length, and is often the case with thinking and talking, answers did not necessary follow.

I understand that there are many reasons for depression, and that trying to look for a simple reason is folly; yet just talking about it was refreshing, and a lot better than all that avoidance and brushing it all under the carpet we men often do best !

We may not be as stoic as those who came before us, yet I wonder if we aren't better off for exactly the same reason.

Stick with me, better posts are on the way* :)

*Results are not typical.

I take it back

I might have been slightly overzealous when I said she couldn't sing.

Warning: Country and Dolly Parton follow.

Sunday, July 04, 2010

Whole lotta love

My formal dinner was lovely.
Lovely in that it was also a bit of a love fest.

Family was a word best used to describe it all, and I had no idea Dunedin was such a huggy place.

So; many hugs, many photo's, many drinks.
One hole in a wall, one fight on the lawn - kids....
Much dancing, and a few piggyback rides for the grown up kids.
All in all a great night.

Even if I'm all hugged out, I'm good for some more :)

Saturday, July 03, 2010

Ocean View

This week, after Allison's resignation notice, I find myself in the South Island once again. This was planned work, however the juxtaposition of the two events has left me seriously thinking about my future options with Vodafone in Auckland.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not about to do anything rash, but a year or so back I had a lot more reasons to hang about. Now I'm wondering what's keeping me up there.

I do still enjoy my job, and its inherent rewards - and they seem to really love me to bits lately, still: is that enough?

My local friends are retreating into their families, and as a result I'm spending more and more time to myself. I realize I'm very independent, but i still enjoy social contact from time to time. Niamh and Andrew left a few months back and although I still have Andrews bike to remember them by, it's just not the same :)

I'm just not sure I could move to Christchurch - I enjoy my rare visits to the Garden City, but a place is just a place - it's the people in it that make the difference. I'm hoping that life will show me the way to continue; but if anybody can think of any reason I should stay or go - feel free to email me !

This weekend finds me in Dunedin, where I have a formal dinner to attend later this evening. Although it is frosty out tonight, the stars are clear and crisp in the night sky. As I lie in bed with the electric blanket on typing this post, I'm reminded that this is my real home - eventually I will return here, build myself a beach house; spending the rest of my days finding more and more ways to enjoy life, and everything it encompasses.

Finally - a plan I can live with !