Journeys

Just remember its not just about how it ends, but every day it takes to get there.

One red guitar

In the corner of my room lies a battered red electric guitar. The frets are scalloped from inexperienced fingers pressing way too hard; the varnish worn away from the fretboard as the strings vibrated against the wood as I practiced: my first guitar, discovered again, dusted off, cleaned and restrung.

So - It may not be a patch on my new American Strat Deluxe, but playing her again I'm reminded of the 26 years we've both been here. Sure - we play a bit better together now; but we've both got a way to go yet.

So, with the sad preponderance of 80's music on our 3-in 1 stereo behind us now, we play along to a more enlightened platter of genres from my iMac; and as I play I'm glad we're back together again. I smile to myself, wondering exactly why….

It's nice to know that some things improve with age, even if we're both a little worse for wear around the edges.

Maybe even me.

But wait - there's more

This pretty much sums up why I dont watch the news anymore...

This is bloody tight

Who am I to argue :)



Every band with a single this year has a mission: beat "Break Even" by The Script. Oh, yah... good luck. John Mayer

Fighting for your food

The last couple of days I've discovered pistachios again . I find it amazing that somehow in this mixed up world, I forgot all about them.

Sonja introduced them to me in Paris, while we waited outside the Moulin Rouge in the rain. She was my first and only tour leader crush - a truly amazing woman.

I love how you get to pry open those sturdy shells, especially those buggers that resist. You find the small crack with your tongue and align your tooth just so. The shell parts under the resolve and voila! … well it's on to the next shell actually.

I always appreciate the things I have to work harder to get. There is no better feeling in the world than knowing you deserve what you have sitting right in front of you.

The trick, I guess, is knowing how hard you have to work for the next great thing in your life.

The wonder of weekends

I have my life back today ...

Since returning from Dunedin I've had a house guest, and it's funny now the place is empty. Funny, but in a totally great way.

It's not like I'm sitting here posting this naked in a leather chair[1] or anything - but when it comes down to it; I really like my own space. Space to breathe and if I'm in the mood, some music to break the silence. God; the silence, the whole not having to say anything.

Yesterday I dropped by the P's for a chat, and ended up getting the whole "This years going to be a good thing for you - blah - you've gotta promise to "get out there" this year speech. Nothing makes me more angry. People insist they have my best interest at heart but they just need to accept I have to live the life I want to, and that doesn't involve me being "out there", until I'm damn good and ready - if at all.

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone

You either fit with someone else, or you don't. When you find someone that fits, and for some unknown reason you don't end up together, it just takes a bit of time to adjust to that fact. That there may be another piece of life's jigsaw puzzle that fits just as well seems...well.. suddenly very unlikely - at least for now.

So - my mum entered by birthday into a numerology website when I was in Dunnoz.

You are a reserved, analytical and peace-loving soul who is blessed with intuition and intelligence. Your ability to concentrate, learn and absorb information far outshines other numbers and you often excel at all forms of scholastics. Usually your intellectual prowess as well as the clarity and foresight of mind is very evident to others at an early age.

However at the same time you are also a very spiritual number. This is because you believe whole heartedly in the relationship between Mother Nature and science. This is part of your inquisitive nature and determination to get to the bottom of what makes the world tick.

You dislike braggarts, gossips and neurotic individuals and find socializing difficult. This is because you can barely hold back your contempt of other people, who are often, indeed acting like fools. You dislike crowds, noise and confusion, so others are more likely to find you watching television at home rather than attending a big sports events.You are not likely to have a wide circle of friends, but once you do accept someone as your friend the bond is usually for life.

The same thing goes for your love life. It is not unusual for a seven to go their entire life without a partner simply because you cannot relate to the emotions and drama that accompany most relationships. This causes you to appear self-centered to others as you opt to spend your time on more interesting subjects.

Hey! I'm not about to believe that the date of your birth determines your whole existence - I'm just saying, that like most things in life, if you throw enough rocks, you're bound to hit a few targets.
That said, I see more than a passing resemblance to myself in those damn italics, but as one of the P's said last night "Nobody ever said you couldn't enjoy tomorrow".

And in that, at least, they're absolutely right. :)

[1] It's actually a cloth chair

Yay it's Wednesday :)

More than friends, I always pledge,
cause friends, they come and go.
People change as does everything.
I wanted to grow old.
Just want to grow old.