Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Like me fuckers!
My universe is contracting.
Many of my Auckland friends have settled down with their families, or are playing house with their new partners. I don't get home to Dunedin nearly enough to stay that current with my friends down there, so over eight years what once were busy weekends have now become rather predictable and perhaps a little boring.
I know that it's up to me to make new friends, and to find new social circles to orbit, but thinking and doing can often be different things entirely. That said, I have met a number of lovely people this year.
From a single outsider looking into to another social circle, it can often be hard to break in. It's not enough to want it; they have to want it too.
It's kind of silly really. You want to build friendships; yet by making the extra effort you can look needy or overly aggressive. The rub is that if you don't try hard enough you never make an impression at all.
Some days you wonder why the hell you bother, and the next you're enjoying great company wondering what you did to deserve it.
Through it all I know that no matter how fine the line I dance; my choices are honest and there is no hidden agenda. What you see is what you get - and I guess that's all that really matters.