Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Live in the now dude!
On Monday, after work, I took Allison's advice, and got a neck massage.
The pain from my neck and jaw had got to the point where I'd try anything to get a decent nights sleep. God it was good.
Half way through the massage I couldn't help but wonder how long i had left. The pain had abated, and although I was enjoying the respite I was thinking about what would happen after the massage was over. As the massage drew to an end, that was all I could think of.
I am so angry - here I was in a moment of bliss, and yet I couldn't enjoy it fully because I couldn't stay in "the now".
If I could do anything over, it would involve an appreciation of the now, and equally, a extreme disinterest in the immediate future.
[Better posts when this is over - apologies - I'm all over the place]